my quite quiet return

I approach this with my thoughts a little guarded and my delete button in close proximity.

But, whatever it was that caused me to abandoned blogging has subsided.

When I first started this blogging thing(I started on LiveJournal)I really wanted a place where I could type my thoughts in order to help me process. Then, I got bit by the blogging-popularity-I-can-make!?-money-please-will-a-popular-blogger-link-to-me bug.

No longer was I solely interested in processing through the keyboard. I wanted to be noticed.

But, really I did not.

I had BlogHer Ads up and running. I was dreaming of ways to attend blogger conferences. I was trying oh so hard to get noticed so that I could "make it big".

But, making it big in the blogging world requires way more work than I was able to give.

I tried writing just for my family and friends. I told more family and friends about my blog. I was averaging a whopping 15-20 readers a day.

Then, something happened. My personal life became more personal and I did not want to share that personal stuff. I would open up a blank post to write and realize that what was REALLY on my mind was something I did not want to share at all. I wanted to share, but my family and friends were now reading my blog. Strangers reading my dirty laundry no problem. It became to hard to know what to filter and what not to filter.

For the past month or so I have been wondering if I should return to my old stomping ground or simply start a new blog and not tell anyone. I still might do the latter or I might write on here and not tell anyone I am back. Google Analytics reports one or two visitors a day. Mainly, they are from google searches and random visitors and some from folks who are "just checking".

As I sit here sipping my freshly brewed homemade chai tea latte with my Odwalla Berries GoMega Bar watching the rain pelt the window, I am hopeful.